Being a beautiful favelado mid is so fucking funny. The other day I was on grindr and a guy named "tesao em feio" (horny for ugly dudes) messages me and says "oier 😍" (hiii), I'm laughing and laughing and then we talk a little and he says he's just doing this to mess with "padrão" guys, conventionally attractive people essentially, which I'm not, but I guess he must have been fooled by my beautiful eyes. But this kind of thing happens often, people just messing with you because they think you look good.

But my favelado skin also doesn't help me in other ways. I went to São Paulo last month, which, by the way, I have ZERO readers from São Paulo, which is crazy, as it's the biggest city in Brazil, there are plenty of people from various Brazilian cities but no regulars from São Paulo itself. Anyway, I was there, Saturday night, looking for some fun, and you know, if you're new in a city you get a lot of attention on grindr, so lots of people are messaging me, I didn't find anyone I liked that night unfortunately, but about 80% of the people who message me are masculine men, like, guys with beards, muscles, hairy, etc, I don't like those guys, I like twinks essentially, hairless, younger, not a lot of muscle, feminine traits to their faces. But I'm a masculine man myself, and it's a gay app, so it's no wonder other masculine men will be into me. Every once in a while a really fucking hot one will message me and I'll go for it, but I always kind of regret it because muscular men are just not soft enough. The other day I fucked a trans girl and it was great, she was extremely soft to the touch, exactly like a woman, and manly men just can't really compete with that. Anyway, I'm there, and one of these average masculine men sends me his albums. I look at them and I'm like, not interested, but I don't say anything because that's the standard response to not being interested. Four minutes later this guy goes, "always some broke faggot playing hard to get to feel like a man, wake up lol," and I'm like, what the fuck, São Paulo is a hardcore city, it's truly a racist world out there. At this point I've stopped caring, like every once in a while there'll be someone messaging me like, "I'll pay you 50 bucks if you let me suck your cock" and I always reply "do I look like I need 50 bucks," most of them block me immediately but one of them once was like "Yes, you do." 😭😭😭